Thursday, May 19, 2011

CONFIDENCE = ???

I am so sorry for not posting for weeks! I have been putting it off, because something happened in those weeks that affected my ability to blog, hence this post won't be my typical fashion post, so you can read on or come back another day :)

Basically it was an accumulation of negative remarks regarding my recent change in appearance that has abolished my confidence. K, it sounds unnecessarily exaggerated; but guys I gotta admit this, my confidence has endured a lot over the years. I mean, I don't want to sound like a typical Hollywood film but I was THAT kid who kinda got teased and was kinda a loner. (hey those Hollywood films got their inspiration somewhere!) So that probably was the time when my insecurities started.....but hey I fought through it and now I have a tone of friends, kinda grew into my features and as MUCH as I hate to admit this, my confidence grew with the improvement of my appearance. Yup cliché MUCH? but these days it was different, I surpassed those superficial needs and I started to focus on other factors in life....and nothing could break me.....and so I thought.....

But I guess I was wrong, and now, it seems harder than ever to bring my confidence and myself back to where it was before. AND wait for it........... the worst part is, it has actually gotten to the point where it has altered my personality. Can you believe it? cause I sure can't, I mean we're talking about a mere comment or two about my appearance and it has gone as far as making me anti-social and doubting my own thoughts'n opinions?!?!??!! RIDICULOUS if you ask me....and yet I can't seem to shake it.

This post took courage to share to the world wide web, but I think it portrays how important this blog is to me, not just for the sake of one-day making some sort of money off it (eek, was I not suppose to admit that openly?) but also how it gives me real happiness to be able to share my passions and receive feedback................
so I guess the challenge is, what do I do next......

anyone have similar stories?

much luv and thanks for reading, 
-M



4 comments:

  1. =( I hope that you're feeling better now and know that you've grown a mile by making this post! As said, Im not 100% sure what the negative comments are but when it comes to blogging I believe in "if you don't have anything nice to say then SHUT UP!" seriously! Since blogging, I've only gotten one "spam" bad comment but it did change the way I saw blogging! At first I was really shocked and hurt by after a while (like a few mins lol) I just realized it's not big deal, there are going to be people out there in this world like that and Im just going to have to deal with their immaturity!

    Anywho, back to the good stuff I really hope you don't change your personality for these types of comments, it's seriously not worth it!!! Think of all the other people who love your style and personality! (me!) lol But I totally understand where you're coming from when you say that it's hard and hurtful because it is!!! But now you've picked yourself up and are standing on your own tow feet again, so give yourself a huge pat on that back! =DDD

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  2. Thanks for the post beautiechips. It is so refreshing to hear you speak about something that we all go through on a regular basis. I appreciate this entry.

    ps. its nice to have you return! Missed your fabulous posts.

    m

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  3. Trust me, there will ALWAYS be people who will bring you down. & it may be tough, but you need to make sure it dosen't get to you. I think you're super pretty, forget about that stupid negative comment that someone says on the internet. Stuff like that really does bring out the ugly side of blogging, you just can't let it get to you though.

    I hope you feel better soon. x

    Day By Diva
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